Sadly, a person's past sexual history greatly effects their current sexual relationship. There are many contributing factors to the downfalls and joys of sex with any sexual partner...such as level of comfort, trust, level of experience and willingness to move towards uncharted territory.
For myself, I am starting to realize that this sex shit, only complicates stuff sometimes. In the past I have been ferocious in my quest for some good good. Often misusing the beauty and intentions of sex (according to God) for another way to get high. We all know that the release of orgasm feels like a fuckin drug...(if it doesn't, then hunny, you are doing it wrong) Welp, apparently, when you're feeling someone, and you are having sex with them as a means of expressing your feelings, they don't exactly feel so good about being used for their goodies. Apparently, it doesnt feel good to the person to just be another casuality or notch on your post of conquest.
So I learned a lot frm Relationship 101. Thought I would switch it up for Possible Relationship 102 (can u tell I'm in school by the course listings)and a sista still can't win! I went from having a lil bit to now being presented with what feels like an ultimatum. Get abstinent or get lost! ::insert gasp here:: I really didn't see me going out like that. I'm finally settling into a new dude, in the phase where I can't keep my hands off of him...I waited for what feels like an eterenity and BOOM. KABLOW. BYE BYE Birdie???!! I must say... I was jih like blown. LOL
Which leads me to my point. How important is it? We clearly feel each other for reasons beyond the surface, sex isn't what the gig was built upon but the benefit package is freaking awesome. So can things last with the termination of some of my benefits? Or is strike in order? It feels like some deliberation with the union is in order. We need to see where we can give up some stuff in order to win and gain the most from the job. We're considering losing our sex benefit in exchange for companionship, friendship, trust, confidence, lastingness, playfulness and mind intimacy like no other. With SEPTA and the MTA possibly losing their vision, dental, and healthcare. It seems that me and my union may have struck up a better deal.
Seeing things in black and white makes a difference.
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2 comments:
in the end, its all worth it. i believe that. hold out and hold on. yay you!
if it worht it for you to esperience sumthn more than see where it takes you...its a gamble wht else in this world isnt. As long as ur feelings and emotions are taken into consideration by said extremely lucky guy then there shud be no reason for either of u to end up blown!...lol
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