I'm Over Ya'll

So I've been rocking with a real fake it till you make it state of mind. There was a pastor I used to listen to and he would say if you claim something that God would make it true. Practice makes habit(not perfect). All of this is to say that I have decided to make the lyrics to Mary J Blige's "Just Fine" really how I think of myself. For a while I wasn't to "fine". I wasn't doing what Mary said is those lyrics.

"So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..FINE!"

I really didn't for a while. That shit is sad to be honest with you reader. I used to look at girlier females (not sure if thats a word) and think "hmmm....maybe I should be a little bit more refined" Most of my friends... Mark in particular lol, have determined I'm just a sexy man. Some times I walk like my balls are in the way. I cuss like a sailer. I smoke blacks, and drink 22oz of Heineken at a time. I don't always cross my legs. I swing first, ask questions later (but I have to be VERY provoked) And I eat like Paul Bunyon. Seriously

This is not to say that I am not lady. And to many I am not by their standards. I've just decided to send a huge FUCK YOU to the commentators. I can hold my own. I can be as sexy as a VS model, I'm confident as peacock. And put a sista in a suit (with a skirt) u can't tell me nothing!

So I saw some chicks last night who I can tell looked at me a ways for how I was acting. Not that it was rude or inappropriate because clearly I live in North Philly where class is soley the definition of going to school. I had a couple of drinks, got a lil tipsed, ate about 6 chicken wings loaded with hot sauce (very sloppy like I might add) Got a lil emotional and smoked my life away. Usually I would get up in the morning and feel mildly disappointed in myself. NOT TODAY! lol. I looked in the mirror and felt good as shit!

(I never really got why people say stuff like that. "Good as shit" how good is shit? "Cold as hell" Riiiggghht. Winter...when it's 10 degrees is cold as the devils house)

So I liked what I saw, I own the adopted attitude n it felt great. =)

Once again, Mary came to the rescue