Psalm 46 :5

"God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns"

This is the Bible Verse that I have been needing to hear for a very long time. Fortunately a friend invited me to church with her on Saturday (7 Day Adventist) and God handed me a double dose of refuge. I keep forgetting his omnipotence and omnipresence and forget that through out everything not only does he have a front row seat to my life, he actually is the only one who should be holding the controller. This is my downfall. I think I need to start taking daily reminders to let me know that I AM NOT IN CONTROL! Most of the things that happen and that I take the hardest are when I take it upon myself to meddle in God's business of what I believe is "my" life which in actuality is his. The life that I think is mine is ALWAYS better when He is in control.

When I heard this verse, I thought about getting it tatted. Fortunately I reconsidered and realized I don't need to permanently have it written on my body, I need to have it permanently seared in my brain. I need to believe, trust and live as a woman "who will not fall" I need to be adopt and integrate this belief into my everyday strut. When everything is going down around you though, it is quite easy to lose sight of this truth.

Things are not OK. Despite my wonderful defense mechanisms of constant jokes and flashing of a pearly white smile...things are NOT OK. But they will be.

I Will Not Fall!