Not I Said Lauren

Anyone who is around me on a consistant basis knows that often times I say the phrase..."Not I, said Lauren." It sounds silly but all it means is not me, or "I am not the one" (another phrase I say often ) I have decided that I will no longer be the one. I will no longer be the person who will be a sponge and soak up yours or anyone elses drama. I am now starting to reject my own drama and no longer have the time, energy or patience to listen to or be party to your drama. It is exhausting. I know that I have done a prettty good job at stoking the fires to perpetuate the never ending drama that is your story. But sadly they're slowly becoming indirectly my own. This notice is to let it be known, that I AM NO LONGER THE ONE. I take full accountability for my prior actions and my role in making these vicious and unecesssary circles continue but I apologize and gracefully bow out because like I said earlier I AM NO LONGER THE ONE!

Don't be upset. It's not you. It's me. I fucked up before. I'm trying to grow now.

Thank You, That is All.

I am not one of those cool kids who consistenly blogs and my first post in quite some time unfortunately isn't all that great but I had to get it off my chest.

Breaking News!

MAY I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE! BREAKING NEWS!

Mr. Aaron Lewis and Mr. Raymond Banks have both received their GED results and have passed!!

(The last time I was this proud, my nephew was potty trained)

I am proud of my part in helping them reach their infinite potential but more so proud of the fact that slowly but surely my fellow brothers have shattered the sterotypes that once shackled them. Both of these men have been involved in things that they now know were wrong paths. (I'm not going to give their past lives shine right now)They decided that the roads that they were heading down were not conducive to their success or future happiness, so instead of talking about it they decided to BE about it.

The most unfortunate thing is that there will be no excitement in the street about their most recent accomplishment. There will be no breaking story; or probably not even another word uttered about their achievement other than this forum. That truly upsets me. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired of people hightlighting and focusing on the negative aspects of our community and not our triumphs. Not things like that fact that over 20% of Temple University's students are hard working black young people. Not focusing on young black people trying to make social and cultural contributions to our society such as those artist in Philalive! I will sound the alarm and let it be heard that these men achieved something positive and I am honored to have the opportunity to have been a part of it.

FYI: [I work at a GED training center on TU Campus called the WELL Program]

We now return you to your regularly scheduled program:

Check what Swirls had to say about the matter:

Thou Art Destructive

Everything is Finally Feelin Jus' Fine!

Iight. Things have been a little topsy turvy to say the least in my social circles. Man problems. Women Problems, the whole 9. Finally I feel as though the dust has settled, and there is
NO MORE DRAMA
Finally I feel as though all of those whom I care about have finally reached a plateau of peace; which is truly what I desire not only for my friends but for myself. A feeling of wellness that often times is robbed by petty differences and bad weather.

Shout Outs to Spring for real. Because the sun, a lil' warmer weather and midterms being over I think was exactly what the doctor ordered. This is a song that I love which I saw performed LIVE by Mary and I think it encompasses my current mood perfectly.

Handle Yourself

Don't allow yourself to become upset by other people places or things.

They are powerless.

Your reaction is their only power

Let me Tell You Bout My BEST FRIENDs!

My best friend in the entire universe is the one.....the only JESSSSSSSSICAAAAAAAA CELIANNNNN!!!!! Honestly I love this woman. All we do all day long, is talk on our work phones to one another. I call and she says "Bank of New York"....she calls, I say " WELL Program, Lauren speaking" The funny thing is every single time we call each other, it is guaranteed that we will erupt in laughter. I'm not saying that we always agree or that we never butt heads but at the end of the day no matter how annoying either of us get, I know that she has my back.



Now I do have another best friend...whose birthday is today. We were buggin at the SAC and it dawned on both of us that HEY! We've only known each other for not even 2 years. Even though we havent known each other for that long Belinda and I have shared many intimae, personal, and hilarious moments. I trust, love and respect her.



These two are my homie Gs for life. Don't question it. Accept it.

Let's Talk About Sex

Ok guys. We are grown as we wanna be. We have the rights to use our bodies as freely as we want to. As individuals we are entitled to smoke, drink, fuck, suck, pierce, tattoo, clothe and show our bodies in any way, shape or form that we desire. It is not the right of anyone else to judge you and what you do with yours at any point in time.

BUT....

Please understand people (both the ladies and the fellas) that your body is just that... yours! You should do what you want with your body in a way that you wouldn't feel ashamed or regret at some point. Granted life's mistakes are the recipe of growth and wisdom but be cautious and weary of what you are doing. Look up at the name of this blog LUIAUCD. Loving you includes loving your body and protecting both your health, sanity and heart at all cost. Please consider the consequences of your actions in the long run and not over indulge in the short term VERY TEMPORARY joys of your sexcapeds.

Now let me make myself EXTREMELY clear. Sex is the shit. It is euphoric, recreational, spiritual and sometimes mind boggling. But with out you, sex would not be possible. With out the maintainance of your integrity, self-esteem, pride and wellness with your self you are cheapening and robbing yourself of the heights that sex can provide.You need to recognize that YOU are the shit and with out u... sex would be nonexistent.

I suggest we all take the time to become intimate with ourselves before becoming intimate with one another. Relationships, peace of mind, and reputations would be spared if we would all just take a moment to THINK BEFORE WE ACT. I ain't tellin you how to live just doing my part in hoping that you consider things from all angles.

Yummy

I love the way you take your time.
Gazing at it lovingly and longingly like your a famished hungry man that hasnt eaten in days.
I love the way you peel past that layer of fuzzy covering.
I love the way your face lights up when you uncover what you wanted the whole time.
I love how satisfied you look when you search and search and are finally hit by the most fulfilling, juiciest, most succulent taste your tongue only dreamed of.
I love how greedy you are with it, being selfish and wanting it all to yourself.

But hold up..... can I get a piece of that peach ur eating sir?